The universe continues to teach me lessons in Triumph and Disaster. This past weekend is a perfect illustration of the highs and lows I seem to experience in very compressed time frames.
Saturday morning I ran 14 miles (my longest distance ever) with absolutely no pain in any joint of my body. I ran relatively swiftly, too, and enjoyed myself thoroughly. That 2 hours of running felt like a huge breakthrough in my training, and suddenly I again saw all sorts of potential on the horizon -- potential whose hope had eluded me lately.
24 hours later, I crashed a motorcycle into a guardrail while mis-navigating an S curve on Highway 20 east of Winthrop.
Crashing a motorcycle is a pretty painful imposter. Running 14 miles pain-free is just as beguiling, however. (That is, my subsequent training run was about the worst 50 minutes of my life -- absolutely excruciating and demoralizing).
What lesson am I to learn? I'm not sure, but somebody's trying to tell me something and I'm not quite sure what the message is. Second chances are a rare treat and I guess I better figure out why I get a second chance and what I'm supposed to do with it. I've never really been a cocky sort of guy so I doubt I am committing the sin of hubris and inviting disaster upon myself from the gods. I just want to enjoy the small pleasures life has to offer.
Also, if it is true that we learn more from our failures than from our victories, I have to tell you that I'm learning a lot about myself lately. Last night, as I huffed and puffed through the most miserable hour in my recent memory, I thought: "Who do I want to be? I am defeated; I am demoralized. I can't change either of those facts. But I CAN decide how I'm going to react to them, and I CAN control how I am perceived in the face of total defeat." Small comfort, maybe, but it helped. The 20 year old Max would have broken something (a golf club, tennis raquet, fifth metacarpal, telephone, etc.). The 32 year old Max is finally learning not to break stuff.
Except motorcycles.
Speaking of motorcycles: I discovered that 115 mph = 8,000 RPM.
Oh crap. Maybe I DID commit hubris after all. Dis aliter visum.
Saturday morning I ran 14 miles (my longest distance ever) with absolutely no pain in any joint of my body. I ran relatively swiftly, too, and enjoyed myself thoroughly. That 2 hours of running felt like a huge breakthrough in my training, and suddenly I again saw all sorts of potential on the horizon -- potential whose hope had eluded me lately.
24 hours later, I crashed a motorcycle into a guardrail while mis-navigating an S curve on Highway 20 east of Winthrop.
Crashing a motorcycle is a pretty painful imposter. Running 14 miles pain-free is just as beguiling, however. (That is, my subsequent training run was about the worst 50 minutes of my life -- absolutely excruciating and demoralizing).
What lesson am I to learn? I'm not sure, but somebody's trying to tell me something and I'm not quite sure what the message is. Second chances are a rare treat and I guess I better figure out why I get a second chance and what I'm supposed to do with it. I've never really been a cocky sort of guy so I doubt I am committing the sin of hubris and inviting disaster upon myself from the gods. I just want to enjoy the small pleasures life has to offer.
Also, if it is true that we learn more from our failures than from our victories, I have to tell you that I'm learning a lot about myself lately. Last night, as I huffed and puffed through the most miserable hour in my recent memory, I thought: "Who do I want to be? I am defeated; I am demoralized. I can't change either of those facts. But I CAN decide how I'm going to react to them, and I CAN control how I am perceived in the face of total defeat." Small comfort, maybe, but it helped. The 20 year old Max would have broken something (a golf club, tennis raquet, fifth metacarpal, telephone, etc.). The 32 year old Max is finally learning not to break stuff.
Except motorcycles.
Speaking of motorcycles: I discovered that 115 mph = 8,000 RPM.
Oh crap. Maybe I DID commit hubris after all. Dis aliter visum.



